Death of Summer Time
Posted on October 27, 2013 by P. D. Ellwand
You awoke from a dream that I had died
the heartrending sobs when you found me not there!
– how wrong I was, to be as easy of my passing.
I was resetting the clocks
borrowing back from the Sun
his enjoyment of our company
over summer mornings.
He’d invested his borrowings
in the fresh tomatoes and apples of my breakfast.
If time is borrowed, so are we.
Worn and drained, I’d thought of Rest
– how wrong was I, to be as easy of my passing.
I had not been mindful of your unease.
I turned back time, just an hour for the autumn,
I wish I could turn back more
to pay you dividends in better fruit.
Dave, Sunday, 27 October 2013, when the clocks had just gone back.
On 20th October, Anne passed away in her sleep. One day I’ll finish the poem fully, but
meanwhile this will have to do:
I awoke but you were still asleep,
Still,
Asleep
It was no dream,
I’d heard your grief those years before
and knew that I was missed and loved.
Can I borrow back some time to tell you,
I’m no easier at your passing
and you are missed and loved
for as long as clocks tick on.
About pdellwand
I am enjoying my liberation!
• this resulted from an early retirement from work in local government, after extensive experience in Youth, Community & Adult Education. An escape to be celebrated.
• I've also finished work at Ofsted, the crown service responsible for inspecting the quality of education and services for children and their families. It used to be more conscious of its independence from the civil service, from politics, politicians and political positioning, from parties, powers and principalities, press, prejudice, pressures and striving for popularity and proud of acting without fear and favour and on the basis of evidence and performance. The following of these principles is currently less clear and although I miss my inspection work and former colleagues, I do not miss the pressures and current tends.
Still lots of projects, contracts and commissions, providing management, consultancy, evaluations and inspections in education, heritage, arts & culture; giving individuals & organisations challenges: critical friendship; mentoring; leadership; management; quality improvement; adaptation to change; inclusive or ethical policies / practices.
• Contracts include music production, unique participative music events and research.
• Clients have included Help the Aged, with commissions for me to create projects for elders to make music in inspirational settings & to evaluate a pilot project for elders creating a radio station as a voice for their generations. For National Museums, Liverpool, the Musicians' Gallery, which brought new music, spoken word and dance into treasured spaces to invite a new way of appreciating them. From New Art Exchange, a commission to create a performance art installation during the Liverpool Biennial,. This took the ideas of volunteers, old and young: their hard work and beauty of movement and song into a successful, intriguing and soulful performance.
• After many years of fighting for and sustaining arts work with young people and their communities, then for creative skills for adult learners while I was head of a centre of excellence - now MY turn: my free-lance work has helped me find my own voice and put my hands to work directly and creatively in music, environment & 3D art. Opportunities for making things directly, working with talented and good-hearted friends, sharing the delight in broadcasts, publications, presentations and performances –
That is liberation.